“I have been in and out of therapy since 2010. After my first week of infusions, all suicidal ideations evaporated. I still have ups and downs but the downs feel less extreme. I feel emotionally lighter. I no longer feel fettered by my depression. The price was my hurtle to starting, but I can wholeheartedly say it was worth every penny.”

Rosemarie

Nushama Member

Rosemarie

Though it feels it, this treatment is neither a miracle nor magic, but science.

I have been in and out of therapy since 2010. After my first week of infusions, all suicidal ideations evaporated. I still have the ups and downs of life but the downs feel less extreme. I feel emotionally lighter. No longer do I feel fettered by my depression.

My past struggles with depersonalization and derealization have, thus far, remained absent. My baseline functioning was autopilot but not once have I slipped back into that cold state of functioning. I feel more connected to myself and the world around me than I can ever remember being. After my first infusion, I felt the gap between my thoughts and emotions begin to bridge. For years I have fought against my body; I now feel my body is my home.

Each journey afforded me such immense therapeutic progress it was as if an entire year of therapy was fit into one afternoon. I acknowledge my gains stem from my time spent in therapy, honing my coping mechanisms and grounding skills. I highly recommend regular mindfulness practice to make the most of this effective, but expensive, treatment. Nushama’s journey integrators are so helpful with setting an intention for, and processing, each journey. At all times, I felt comfortable and safe; Nushama’s staff is friendly, helpful, and professional. At Nushama, ketamine is just part of the overall treatment—a tool for improving wellbeing.

Since 2010, I have tried more antidepressants and auxiliary medications than I have fingers and toes. It’s almost comical to think I had resigned myself to that. The difference I feel is immense. My spouse says I have been reinvigorated; my friends and family have noticed the positive shift as well. After treatment, I find myself engaging in hobbies not in an attempt to cope or distract myself from depression but for enjoyment.

It was a several-month struggle for me to commit to ketamine infusions. The price was my biggest hurdle. I realized if someone I loved needed this treatment I’d pay, no question. Plus, I’ve spent much more over the years in copayments and prescription fees, emotional labor and days missed from work due to severe depressive episodes. I grew up in a household with a scarcity mentality. I got free meals at school. The cost of this was half of my entire savings but I can wholeheartedly say it was worth every penny.